Not dead :)

Aaand another week has passed. Funnily, I cannot remember a moment in which I actually felt bad or sad or regretted anything. I don't know what it is, but after January and the first weeks of February were really hard and to some extend painful and asked for a lot of decisions, I feel really really good ever since my birthday. Maybe it is because the sun has been shining for over a week now, or because every day it's getting brighter, or because the freezing air clears my head, or for some other reason, but I'm really almost back to those September-Mid-November high spirits that were broken that night in Tampere thanks to an alleged eating disorder. 

But all of this was last year and it's time to finally move on. I feel a new energy and a new determination about a lot of things, and even though it doesn't work out quite yet I feel like I'm on my way and maybe this time it's the right one. At least I'm walking into the right direction - luckily, ways can be changed. 

A week until Melanie is here and another one and a half until Maike will be here. I am literally counting the days over here, which hasn't happened for quite a while. The best: I always counted the days until I'd come here, now I have people to visit me, HA! Two exams to tackle on the way -Swedish and Phonetics - and lots and lots of fun. I've made a few plans for Maike's stay and it's going to be absolutely awesome. Today I got my birthday present from Christi which arrived a week late, but here it is now. Her idea was very cute and honestly, I hadn't really expected anything at all, but it seems like everything is settled, so I guess now I'm a little more sure of the fact that is a friendship that does work on long-distance. Good to know for the future since we don't know where we'll be swept off to ^^
Same with the girls. I don't talk to them much but in a way the connection is still there and I seriously cannot wait until we'll all be reunited. New Years 11/12 at the latest, yeesh.

I'mtotally stuck on Mika and Pink lately, their music gives me so damn much energy. I've always said Mika makes the world a better place ^_^' And Pink ... yah, any comment necessary? That Funhouse-DVD got me through the last winter already and now with the "new" songs (read: songs I didn't know before) there's even more energy&motivation to be found. Really really great. Then I rediscovered Greenday this week, haha. Back to the Roots so to say. - And all of that just because Davey Havok will lead in their musical for a couple of shows. The songs, however, are really really great and if you get Tony Vincent robed in for a musical it cannot be bad, right? - Right.
I also finally managed to continue watching Glee yesterday and I truly, truly missed it the last weeks. The show is amazing and I'm still so impressed by Kurt who certainly is one of the most inspiring fictional characters on TV I've seen for a long time - just attitude-wise. I mean, his story totally carries the whole show XD

I'm almost through with the two books I bought last week -.- Well they're short. But they still could go on for like .. forever. I love the style and I love how that "anonymus" writer develops a story we've already seen in parts. Really really well done. Can't wait until the next one comes out in May, eh. 

What else ... nothing really. Weekend will require a lot of studying. Aurelia and I cancelled our Porvoo-plans for that... well, and for the temperatures. Porvoo might be beautiful but I don't need to stay outside for hours at -20°C - not even when (at the moment) I can stand the cold a lot better than the darkness before. Not even if you can actually feel the sun by not. Not even... at all :D So Porvoo will be postponed to after the exams. As my fototrip to Vanhakaupunki, apparently. But I have all time in the world :) 

Now some reading. 

It's weekend :))

Shiny happy people

What a beautiful day :)
While most of the world is being concerned with that questionable V the Americans (who was it?) put on it, I'm actually quite enjoying myself. Woke up to the brightest sunshine and the wonderfully blue sky we've been blessed with for a couple of days now already. - More to come. My original plan was to get up at 9 but it turned out to be 10. Heh, doesn't matter, uni only started at 12 so I still had plenty of time left. I'm still surprised that I slept before midnight last night and that, apart from waking up at around 4.30 slept sound and dreamlessly. Yay.
Apart from the sunshine I woke up to there also was a txtmessage from my parents waiting for me. After I wrote them a several pages' long email about some very determinative decisions and told them that I didn't want to hear anything in particular, just wanted to tell them about everything, and after I texted them yesterday about the camera they got me being absolutley magnificent, this morning they ensured me their complete support on everything I plan doing and told me that I sounded like my future was finally lighting up a little, which is sth they're happy about, of course. So the mail was a good thing, I guess, especially since it also cleared my mind a lot.
Now I just have to stick to the plan and then everything has to work out well and THEN... - yah. Hello, world :)

Anyway.
Our thermometre in the kitchen greeted me with joyful -18°C but I felt up to the challenge. Which was a good thing, because apart from class I also had a couple of minutes in the Cathedral to go through everything again in my head. I should definitely do this more often - I have in the beginning.
Class was fun, as usual. This time she collected our notes - hope she can decipher something XD I think I could have done worse, though.
Currently there is an empty paper lying beside me - my homework for tomorrow still wants to be written but I haven't really made up my mind yet about how to make it sound good. I don't want to use basic standart-babbling, but then this is what all autobiographies are like. I was born, I grew up... - autobiographies always make me think of the film Interview with the Vampire and of Louis trying to make Daniel listen.
Guess I should put my mind to it.

Wellwell. 3 weeks until Maike gets here and less than two until Melanie finally arrives. Can't wait for either of them, those weeks are going to be so fucking great!!! Waiting desperately for the show, also. But I already wrote that. Well, I still do, hahah. I'm still so deeply impressed by that beautiful&insightful message Gabriela wrote me. Wow. She really found the right words - I couldn't even say how thankful I was because she just truly, truly moved me. So good to know they're still around even though they're away. Love those girls ♥
Birthday was beautiful anyway, I'm glad everything went the way it went, also before that day. I was very concerned I would be feeling bad about so many things, but I really found myself waking up happy and enthusiastic. Kristina made muffins for me as a surprise ♥ and then I had lunch with Aurelia and we spent ages at akateeminen and the whole day was bright and sunny and happy, eh. Talked to my parents and grandparents and my aunt&uncle and Stephan and Silke and everything was great. It's weird that on the day I thought I would miss everyone the most, I felt closer to all those people than ever. Karsten had this beautiful wolf-card for me that already arrived on wednesday, just like mum&dad's package with my cam. Silke got me the funniest bookmark that's made of leather and is, in fact, an elk... xD Love it.
I got myself two books out of which I already read most of the first, gotta give it to Kristina afterwards. It's so funny when books based on another story are in fact better than the original story - at least when it comes to the writing style XD


My homework is SCREAMING at me, really gotta get myself motivated now.