Another week is gone. Or when did I write last?
Either way, it's Monday again and the day was, uhm, semi-productive. I was pretty late for Uni (my bad) and then went down Aleksanterinkatu on my way home, looking through both H&M to find some inspiration for spring. I'm not completely convinced yet, though. Not by H&M. (What the hell is wrong with them!?). I did find something I might buy after having Anne's second opinion. She knows what I get to wear :D
I was home in the afternoon and after lunch and a little back and fro in/about the forum and wasting lots of time doing nothing productive at all I finally started re-reading my text for the homework, made notes and actually did put together a decent summary. One page. Not sure if that is enough according to the length of the original text, but it felt like I was paraphrasing, had I written more. Actually I guess I had a little spare motivation because of the pm Marika wrote me about my review. However I wish my teachers were of her opinion when it comes to my writing skills XD But it's always great to have her as a backup. I don't think anyone ever supported me as much as she does - not since my English teacher in school. Heh.
Well, then there was of course Melanie visiting last week. She had a hell lot of work to do, but it was nice doing something normal like meeting her at Java. - And something unnormal like the impossible roadtrip to KiGa City ... I mean: to Tampere and back. We only took the bus at six and is there any better way to spent a coach tour eating sweets and catching up about virtually e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g? - No. It was shockingly not-cold in Tampere when we arrived and then there was the snowrainbullshit that sort of ruined the impression, but well. It was exactly that snowrainbullshit that allowed us to go inside earlier and deprived us of having to pay the entrance. Heh. We met Tia again and two au pair friends of her, but conversations ran a little slow because we were all bored and tired. Perus ennen keikkaa -meininki. Jaahas.
Guys started playing at midnight and I'm mostly happy with the show, if only the setlist didn't feel like they didn't know what they were doing when putting it together. Well, every single song was incredibly great, but they didn't fit.
Nevermind, I still enjoyed the show and it was all totally worth the effort. SO happy to see them again and SO glad that it was such a nice and undisturbed evening. Felt like I needed that, even though I felt so good lately. We arrived back at kylmä&tuulinen at 6 o'clock in the morning, I took the train at .31 so that I finally collapsed into my bed at 7 straight. Yeesh. Saturday was consequently sleepy. But very relaxing. [OMG, Mads Langer's The river has run wild was just shuffled on my itunes. Gosh, I love this guy's way of making music].
Sunday was lazy again, well except for the basic cleaning and tidying up. Didnt do much for Uni though. Stupid Swedish övningsprov, I'm totally not going to rock this exam as much as the last one. xD But I don't get a grade anyways, so whatever. How did Swedish become another egolanguage when the tests have not even been elaborate?! Well. It's fun. Period.
I told Melanie about basically everything I had to say about my plans and it was a really, really good conversation, and very soothing as well. So I worried in vain. Which is good to know.
Well.
Oh yeah, last but not least, there was this other thing we talked about. Something that annoys me since ... let me think ... oh, make it years. I'm not very good at it either and there's two people I can tell without thinking whom I did this to, but:
Friendship is something that has to work both ways.
You want a message - you write one
You want to be asked how you are - you ask how your friends are
You need help - you give some
You want to meet someone - you make the time.
- and so on.
Aah!!
Drain the pressure from the swelling... (24.02.11)
(Post from 24.02.2011)
My one 'skill' to find sleep doesn't work tonight and the scenarios I usually make up to help clear my thoughts are taking up too much space in my mind and make it impossible for me to relax. I don't even know why. It's been quite a long time since I've felt so sleepless, so I guess it's just this - the sort of insomnia that always creeps up to me when I expect it the least.
There'd be quite a lot of things to say and considering the late hour it'd probably even be possible (i've always talked the best at night), but this would also require to think about things in great detail and I don't feel up to that tonight. My mind, though alert, is tired of thinking, or, well, I am.
So there's need for a substitute-subject.
Well, for example I've been to the cinema on monday, together with Kristina. We watched Hella W, the film about, well, Hella Wuolijoki, which was really really interesting but also incredibly demanding when it comes to language skills. At firt it just creates a huge chaos in the head because of the way the mind works - listening to Finnish, "check-reading" Swedish and processing all of that in German and English. Multi-tasking on advanced level. So ... I understood the dialogues, but no details, which means I understood the single scenes, but couldn't put them together to an actual story, even though it was told chronologically and the storytelling seemed to make sense - at least on screen. Speaking of, I think that the film is absolutely great when it comes to its cinematography. As associatively as the story seems to be told, there really is a dept to the scenes and the pictures and impressions make up a good deal of storytelling already. The music was absolutely amazing and fit perfectly. I also loved the little hints at all the films we talked about in class - Niskavuori and all those things. It was nice to see such old footage in such a modern film. (and i'm glad i didn't live in the 30s when film was still theater put on screen and felt hopelessly naive and overacted)
So, yah, great film, great challenge, would love to see it again to check whether it makes more sense.
The next challenge is going to be Jadesoturi for the third time. I'm curious what's that going to be like. Weirdest film ever and yet I keep on wanting to watch it every now and then.
Of course I also watched Glee today. The ep made me want to have a little party on Friday, but then again I'll be wise not to have any. Friday. Huh. I'm so euphoric about the show, in a way that sometimes it makes me wonder. I mean, damn, it's a freaking show, but I seriously look forward to it.
I love how this blog is turning into uni, lyrics, videos and tv-shows only, haha.
[...]
#4 repost
...I just found a song that makes me a lot more sad than Times to be remembered...
Plumb - Cut
Again, I cannot quite explain why. It's the combination, the way the lyrics go with the music... and most of all the piano. And just everything about the song that makes it hard to listen, in a way. It easily makes me cry for some reason.
But it's beautiful. <3
#5
Day 05 - A song that reminds me of someone
That's very easy, I don't even need to think about this one:
Mika - Happy Ending
Will always & forever remind me of my former best friend / longest crush / biggest love until 2006.
"If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well
- A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell.
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory,
Happy ending's gone forevermore.
This is the hardest story that I've ever told
No hope, or love, or glory,
Happy ending's gone forevermore.
This is the way you left me, I'm not pretending
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending"
No hope, no love, no glory
No happy ending"
Even today it's surprising to me how much truth there is to the saying that if you truly loved somebody, the person never really disappears from your life. I spent all of my teenage years, all my middle- and highschool years being in love with one of the same person. - First naively, then desperately, and finally platonically. We missed our one chance, and it probably was the best thing we could do, the best decision we could make. Haha, had we tried... I would have never managed to get over it. The story ended silently. No fight, no big deal. - Maybe our time was simply over. Maybe now he simply belongs to that long gone past. :)
"This is the way that we love - like it's forever
Then live the rest of our lives, but not together."day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from your favorite band
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year
#3
Day #3 A Song that makes me happy
Again, there are many, but I will go with the following cover of Levoton Tuhkimo:
... and i don't even know why. XD
day 04 - a song that makes you sad
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from your favorite band
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year
#2
Day 02 - My least favourite Song
One song that definitely never fails to give me the creeps ... and also never fails to aggravate me would be:
AAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!! Sadly, the wonderful Baseballs made it a whole lot better and I can actually listen to their version quite well. It's still probably the worst song I've ever heard. No more rainy days for Rihanna and her loved one, PLEASE!
day 01 - your favorite song
One song that definitely never fails to give me the creeps ... and also never fails to aggravate me would be:
Rihanna - Umbrella.
day 03 - a song that makes you happy
day 04 - a song that makes you sad
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from your favorite band
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year
attempt #9836378 | 30days of music
Yah, so I'll try doing this for the millionth time right now. Let's see how far I'll come this time.
I just figured that since I'm abusing this blog for music anyways, I could extend the whole thing a little.
Sooo:
#1
My favourite song.
- Which is the worst choice right in the beginning because there are tons of those. First of all, I have favourite songs that are classified by mood. I have a favourite depression song (UK - Vapauta Meidät) and a favourite lovesong (The Cure - Letter to Elise) and a favourite summer-song (Tehosekoitin - Kaikki Nuoret Tyypit) and a song that never fails to make me happy (Teemu's version of Levoton Tuhkimo) and a favourite angry-song (Evanescence - Sweet Sacrifice) or a favourite "i'm angry but i don't need aggressive words for that" song (Mika - My Interpretation) and all sort of favourites. I don't have THE favourite song.
My favourite song of this week is, however:
American Idiot Musical / Tony Vincent - St. Jimmy
Because, uhm, well, first of all: Tony.
Then, because it gives me a hell lot of energy and it's immense fun to listen to it. I just love it, and it's definitely my favourite song of this week ;)
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day 02 - your least favorite song
day 03 - a song that makes you happy
day 04 - a song that makes you sad
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to
day 09 - a song that you can dance to
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep
day 11 - a song from your favorite band
day 12 - a song from a band you hate
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love
day 15 - a song that describes you
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio
day 19 - a song from your favorite album
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty
day 29 - a song from your childhood
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year
Last night
Take away the sensation inside
Bitter sweet migraine in my head
Its like a throbbing tooth ache of the mind
I can't take this feeling anymore
Drain the pressure from the swelling,
This sensations overwhelming,
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me that I won't feel a thing
So give me Novacaine
Out of body and out of mind
Kiss the demons out of my dreams
I get the funny feeling, that's alright
Jimmy says it's better than air,
I'll tell you why
Oh Novacaine
Drain the pressure from the swelling,
This sensations overwhelming,
Give me a long kiss goodnight
and everything will be alright
Tell me Jimmy I won't feel a thing
So give me Novacaine
(Green Day - Give me Novacaine)
jos sulla kerran ei oo hyvää syytä jäädä tänne
"Tiesin kaikki kääntyy kuitenkin
Unelmani saa taas ottaa
jossain muualla
ilman sinua"
- "Sä olet liian lähellä nähdäksesi miten mun maailma toimii"
Letterbomb
"It's not over 'till you're underground
It's not over before it's too late
This city's burning
It's not my burden
It's not over before it's too late
It's not over before it's too late
This city's burning
It's not my burden
It's not over before it's too late
She said I can't take this place
I'm leaving it behind
Well she said I can't take this town
I'm leaving you tonight"
[Green Day]
I'm leaving it behind
Well she said I can't take this town
I'm leaving you tonight"
[Green Day]
:)
Not dead :)
Aaand another week has passed. Funnily, I cannot remember a moment in which I actually felt bad or sad or regretted anything. I don't know what it is, but after January and the first weeks of February were really hard and to some extend painful and asked for a lot of decisions, I feel really really good ever since my birthday. Maybe it is because the sun has been shining for over a week now, or because every day it's getting brighter, or because the freezing air clears my head, or for some other reason, but I'm really almost back to those September-Mid-November high spirits that were broken that night in Tampere thanks to an alleged eating disorder.
But all of this was last year and it's time to finally move on. I feel a new energy and a new determination about a lot of things, and even though it doesn't work out quite yet I feel like I'm on my way and maybe this time it's the right one. At least I'm walking into the right direction - luckily, ways can be changed.
A week until Melanie is here and another one and a half until Maike will be here. I am literally counting the days over here, which hasn't happened for quite a while. The best: I always counted the days until I'd come here, now I have people to visit me, HA! Two exams to tackle on the way -Swedish and Phonetics - and lots and lots of fun. I've made a few plans for Maike's stay and it's going to be absolutely awesome. Today I got my birthday present from Christi which arrived a week late, but here it is now. Her idea was very cute and honestly, I hadn't really expected anything at all, but it seems like everything is settled, so I guess now I'm a little more sure of the fact that is a friendship that does work on long-distance. Good to know for the future since we don't know where we'll be swept off to ^^
Same with the girls. I don't talk to them much but in a way the connection is still there and I seriously cannot wait until we'll all be reunited. New Years 11/12 at the latest, yeesh.
Same with the girls. I don't talk to them much but in a way the connection is still there and I seriously cannot wait until we'll all be reunited. New Years 11/12 at the latest, yeesh.
I'mtotally stuck on Mika and Pink lately, their music gives me so damn much energy. I've always said Mika makes the world a better place ^_^' And Pink ... yah, any comment necessary? That Funhouse-DVD got me through the last winter already and now with the "new" songs (read: songs I didn't know before) there's even more energy&motivation to be found. Really really great. Then I rediscovered Greenday this week, haha. Back to the Roots so to say. - And all of that just because Davey Havok will lead in their musical for a couple of shows. The songs, however, are really really great and if you get Tony Vincent robed in for a musical it cannot be bad, right? - Right.
I also finally managed to continue watching Glee yesterday and I truly, truly missed it the last weeks. The show is amazing and I'm still so impressed by Kurt who certainly is one of the most inspiring fictional characters on TV I've seen for a long time - just attitude-wise. I mean, his story totally carries the whole show XD
I also finally managed to continue watching Glee yesterday and I truly, truly missed it the last weeks. The show is amazing and I'm still so impressed by Kurt who certainly is one of the most inspiring fictional characters on TV I've seen for a long time - just attitude-wise. I mean, his story totally carries the whole show XD
I'm almost through with the two books I bought last week -.- Well they're short. But they still could go on for like .. forever. I love the style and I love how that "anonymus" writer develops a story we've already seen in parts. Really really well done. Can't wait until the next one comes out in May, eh.
What else ... nothing really. Weekend will require a lot of studying. Aurelia and I cancelled our Porvoo-plans for that... well, and for the temperatures. Porvoo might be beautiful but I don't need to stay outside for hours at -20°C - not even when (at the moment) I can stand the cold a lot better than the darkness before. Not even if you can actually feel the sun by not. Not even... at all :D So Porvoo will be postponed to after the exams. As my fototrip to Vanhakaupunki, apparently. But I have all time in the world :)
Now some reading.
To the middle of my frustrating fears...
"En saa enkä ehkä tahdokaan
Sinua tai ketään sinun kaltaista
Kertomaan kuinka pitää elää
Vitut teidän neuvoista
Kasvaa paine liian suureksi
Ja kaiken tämän keskellä tulen hulluksi
Hulluuden vaihtaisin suudelmaan
Vaihtaisin sen mihin vaan
En tahdo olla samanlainen
Niin kuin kaikki muut
En tahdo olla samanlainen
Niin kuin kaikki muut
Sinäkin"
And I swear:
You're just like a pill
You're just like a pill
Instead of making me better,
you keep making me ill.
gotta love this.
wonderful video.
great song.
amazing artist!
- gotta love MIKA ♥
Is it really necessary
Every single day
You’re making me more ordinary
In every possible way
This ordinary mind is broken
You did it and you don’t even know
You’re leaving me with words unspoken
You better get back 'cause I’m ready for
More than this
Whatever it is
Baby, I hate days like this
Caught in a trap
I can't look back
Baby I hate days like this
When it rains and rains and rains and rains
More than this
Baby, I hate days like -
Trying to be ordinary
Was it me who was the fool?
Thought you found the man you wanted
until you turned him into something new
Even if our minds are broken
There's something that I need you to know
It's nothing like the life we wanted
But you better move on 'cause I’m ready for
More than this
Whatever it is
Baby, I hate days like this
Caught in a trap
I can't look back
Baby I hate days like this
When it rains and rains and rains and rains
More than this
Baby I hate days like
More than this whatever it is
Baby I hate days like
Caught in a trap I can't look back
When it rains and rains and rains and rains
More than this, baby
I hate days like ...
[MIKA, The Boy who knew too much]
Shiny happy people
What a beautiful day :)
While most of the world is being concerned with that questionable V the Americans (who was it?) put on it, I'm actually quite enjoying myself. Woke up to the brightest sunshine and the wonderfully blue sky we've been blessed with for a couple of days now already. - More to come. My original plan was to get up at 9 but it turned out to be 10. Heh, doesn't matter, uni only started at 12 so I still had plenty of time left. I'm still surprised that I slept before midnight last night and that, apart from waking up at around 4.30 slept sound and dreamlessly. Yay.
Apart from the sunshine I woke up to there also was a txtmessage from my parents waiting for me. After I wrote them a several pages' long email about some very determinative decisions and told them that I didn't want to hear anything in particular, just wanted to tell them about everything, and after I texted them yesterday about the camera they got me being absolutley magnificent, this morning they ensured me their complete support on everything I plan doing and told me that I sounded like my future was finally lighting up a little, which is sth they're happy about, of course. So the mail was a good thing, I guess, especially since it also cleared my mind a lot.
Now I just have to stick to the plan and then everything has to work out well and THEN... - yah. Hello, world :)
Anyway.
Our thermometre in the kitchen greeted me with joyful -18°C but I felt up to the challenge. Which was a good thing, because apart from class I also had a couple of minutes in the Cathedral to go through everything again in my head. I should definitely do this more often - I have in the beginning.
Class was fun, as usual. This time she collected our notes - hope she can decipher something XD I think I could have done worse, though.
Currently there is an empty paper lying beside me - my homework for tomorrow still wants to be written but I haven't really made up my mind yet about how to make it sound good. I don't want to use basic standart-babbling, but then this is what all autobiographies are like. I was born, I grew up... - autobiographies always make me think of the film Interview with the Vampire and of Louis trying to make Daniel listen.
Guess I should put my mind to it.
Wellwell. 3 weeks until Maike gets here and less than two until Melanie finally arrives. Can't wait for either of them, those weeks are going to be so fucking great!!! Waiting desperately for the show, also. But I already wrote that. Well, I still do, hahah. I'm still so deeply impressed by that beautiful&insightful message Gabriela wrote me. Wow. She really found the right words - I couldn't even say how thankful I was because she just truly, truly moved me. So good to know they're still around even though they're away. Love those girls
While most of the world is being concerned with that questionable V the Americans (who was it?) put on it, I'm actually quite enjoying myself. Woke up to the brightest sunshine and the wonderfully blue sky we've been blessed with for a couple of days now already. - More to come. My original plan was to get up at 9 but it turned out to be 10. Heh, doesn't matter, uni only started at 12 so I still had plenty of time left. I'm still surprised that I slept before midnight last night and that, apart from waking up at around 4.30 slept sound and dreamlessly. Yay.
Apart from the sunshine I woke up to there also was a txtmessage from my parents waiting for me. After I wrote them a several pages' long email about some very determinative decisions and told them that I didn't want to hear anything in particular, just wanted to tell them about everything, and after I texted them yesterday about the camera they got me being absolutley magnificent, this morning they ensured me their complete support on everything I plan doing and told me that I sounded like my future was finally lighting up a little, which is sth they're happy about, of course. So the mail was a good thing, I guess, especially since it also cleared my mind a lot.
Now I just have to stick to the plan and then everything has to work out well and THEN... - yah. Hello, world :)
Anyway.
Our thermometre in the kitchen greeted me with joyful -18°C but I felt up to the challenge. Which was a good thing, because apart from class I also had a couple of minutes in the Cathedral to go through everything again in my head. I should definitely do this more often - I have in the beginning.
Class was fun, as usual. This time she collected our notes - hope she can decipher something XD I think I could have done worse, though.
Currently there is an empty paper lying beside me - my homework for tomorrow still wants to be written but I haven't really made up my mind yet about how to make it sound good. I don't want to use basic standart-babbling, but then this is what all autobiographies are like. I was born, I grew up... - autobiographies always make me think of the film Interview with the Vampire and of Louis trying to make Daniel listen.
Guess I should put my mind to it.
Wellwell. 3 weeks until Maike gets here and less than two until Melanie finally arrives. Can't wait for either of them, those weeks are going to be so fucking great!!! Waiting desperately for the show, also. But I already wrote that. Well, I still do, hahah. I'm still so deeply impressed by that beautiful&insightful message Gabriela wrote me. Wow. She really found the right words - I couldn't even say how thankful I was because she just truly, truly moved me. So good to know they're still around even though they're away. Love those girls
:)
My Interpretation
You talk about life, you talk about death
And everything in between
Like it’s nothing
And the words are easy.
You talk about me and talk about you
And everything I do
Like it’s something
That needs repeating.
I dont need an alibi or for you to realise
The things we left unsaid
Are only taking space up in our head.
Make it my fault, win the game
Point the finger, place the blame
And toss me up and down
- It doesn’t matter now
Cause I dont care if I ever talk to you again
This is not about emotion
I don’t need a reason
Not to care what you say
Or what happened in the end -
This is my interpretation
And it don’t, don’t make sense
The first two weeks turn into ten
I hold my breath and wonder when it’ll happen
- Does it really matter?
If half of what you said is true
And half of what I didn’t do
Could be different, would it make it better?
If we forget the things we know
Would we have somewhere to go?
- The only way is down, I can see that now
'Cause I don’t care if I ever talk to you again
This is not about emotion
I don’t need a reason
Not to care what you say
Or what happened in the end
This is my interpretation
And it don’t don’t make sense!
It's really not such a sacrifice
If I never talk to you again
This is not about emotion
I don’t need a reason
Not to care what you say
Or what happened in the end
This is my interpretaion
And it don’t don’t make sense!
And it don't have to make no sense to you at all,
'Cause this is my interpretation
(Mika, Life in Cartoon Motion)
burning down neverland.
One night to you
Lasted six weeks for me
Just a bitter little pill now
Just to try to go to sleep
No more waking up to innocence
Say hello to hesitance
To everyone I meet
Thanks to you years ago
I guess I'll never know
What love means to me but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling
It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy
Left my childhood behind
In a roll away bed
Everything was so damn simple
Now I'm losing my head
Trying to cover up the damage
And pad out all the bruises
too young to know i had it
So it didn't hurt to lose it
Didn't hurt to lose it
No but oh
I'll keep on rolling down this road
But I've got a bad, bad feeling
It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way
Now I'm numb as hell and I can't feel a thing
But don't worry about regret or guilt
cause I never knew your name
I just want to thank you
Thank you
From the bottom of my heart
For all the sleepless nights
And for tearing me apart
It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
Cause it's gonna be a long long way
It's gonna take a long time to love
It's gonna take a lot to hold on
It's gonna be a long, long, long, long way to happy, yeah
Left in the pieces that you broke me into
Torn apart but now I've got to
Keep on rolling like a stone
'cause it's gonna be a long long way to happy
Soo.
Life goes on and today it feels like I found my balance again. Which, of course, doesn't need to say anything at all, but at least it's a good day and the sun is shining and I feel fine. Melanie has booked her stay here for her thesis-work and we're going to Tampere on that weekend in order to see Uniklubi, jeee. It's been a while and I love that she can see them again so soon. It'll also be nice to be with someone who understands... not about Uniklubi, but about uhm well yeah, basically everything. After she's gone it'll only be a very short time until Mai will pay me a visit and we definitely have some serious talking to do... I guess we both need someone to rant to about virtually everything. Like people's behaviour XD
The week has been halfway productive, so I'm left with a little homework that will have to be done today and then I'm ready for a new week.
Seems like my flu didn't really dare to get through after all, so my throat doesn't hurt anymore and my voice is mostly normal as well. If the weather decides to stay as it is now I guess I should be totally fine. Then I will have to ask Irene and Aurelia for their friday afternoon plans and we'll have some coffee at café java or elsewhere. The actual party will take place when Melanie is here, of course. We'll probably "abuse" the show for our birthday-afterparty. Or Bäkkäri. Or both :D Can't wait.
I owe them a mail, though, after being so concerned with my last week's outburst. - But I'm being bitter again, and I'm too good-humoured for that today :)
Anyway, the week was a little too intense when it comes to all the deep-thought conversations with Anne and Karsten and everything. Time to lay back and enjoy what's next. After finishing this I'll take a little walk and then get something to eat (AND CHOCOLATE), so that tonight I can work on my texts&vocab. I can't wait for my new camera to arrive on the weekend (hopefully), because then I have a few projects coming up like Vanhakaupunki, the beautiful wooden house in Oulunkylä and maybe a walk down the river, and of course finally Seurasaari. I also asked Aurelia whether she wanted to join me to Porvoo and then I would love to try and find out how accessible Nuuksio is at this time of the year. The temperature seems quite moderate and it's not all too dark anymore, so maybe I could try and go to the lakes, at least. I should try with Mai. She needs to see pastoral Finland :D But then again I also want to take her to Tallinn. Ah. The choices. XD
I'm also waiting for a mail from Laura about the Erasmus in School thing.
Well,well. I'm hungry, so I guess I should be off. Pizzapäivä, heh.
I like today. - And it's even sunday O_o
The week has been halfway productive, so I'm left with a little homework that will have to be done today and then I'm ready for a new week.
Seems like my flu didn't really dare to get through after all, so my throat doesn't hurt anymore and my voice is mostly normal as well. If the weather decides to stay as it is now I guess I should be totally fine. Then I will have to ask Irene and Aurelia for their friday afternoon plans and we'll have some coffee at café java or elsewhere. The actual party will take place when Melanie is here, of course. We'll probably "abuse" the show for our birthday-afterparty. Or Bäkkäri. Or both :D Can't wait.
I owe them a mail, though, after being so concerned with my last week's outburst. - But I'm being bitter again, and I'm too good-humoured for that today :)
Anyway, the week was a little too intense when it comes to all the deep-thought conversations with Anne and Karsten and everything. Time to lay back and enjoy what's next. After finishing this I'll take a little walk and then get something to eat (AND CHOCOLATE), so that tonight I can work on my texts&vocab. I can't wait for my new camera to arrive on the weekend (hopefully), because then I have a few projects coming up like Vanhakaupunki, the beautiful wooden house in Oulunkylä and maybe a walk down the river, and of course finally Seurasaari. I also asked Aurelia whether she wanted to join me to Porvoo and then I would love to try and find out how accessible Nuuksio is at this time of the year. The temperature seems quite moderate and it's not all too dark anymore, so maybe I could try and go to the lakes, at least. I should try with Mai. She needs to see pastoral Finland :D But then again I also want to take her to Tallinn. Ah. The choices. XD
I'm also waiting for a mail from Laura about the Erasmus in School thing.
Well,well. I'm hungry, so I guess I should be off. Pizzapäivä, heh.
I like today. - And it's even sunday O_o
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"He’s telling us that we thrive, for some reason, on hurt and pain. When we’re bee-buzzing happy, we don’t create the most amazing art.
I’m sure Monet was in pain when he painted his water lilies. I don’t know if he was heartbroken or constipated, but I guarantee you he wasn’t happy."
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